Clarification

Hmmm, another day another stress. At times, I dont know how should I deal with this. Is this my problems or hers. Why she keep doing this. How d I response. Where should I put the line. I just dont know. If not because of my 2 boys, I d probably let her go already. Why keeping someone who can't appreciate you. Hey, let her go and just build a new life. People have done that. May be that is thr better way for me and her. But before letting her go, a few things must be settled. I am not sure whether I should get advice from a lawyer. Some one (if) has to go, then he/she should go entirely. Dont want to see her face. Dont want to listen to her voice. She has just to butt out.

Ok, a few questions I would ask her-

Can you explain 2 long calls?

Why the call made when I was not at home?

Why it should be 45 and over 60 min long?

Should tell her my feeling-

Sad

Humiliated

Frustrated

Do you know that I d be mad? So why still doing that?

Worry because can see that you response is superficial

What next steps?

How to ensure I will not get mad if I notice these instances again m

Would telling me be ok?

Maybe instead of me start talking, let just ask her to start. She can start wherever she likes. Then, I will talk when it comes to my turn. I dont want to me nyampuk.

sms ni buat aku confius

hello kawan2,

semalam nape tiba2 gatal nak cek sms bini aku ... and bila cek, mmg sah , ada sms yg bunyi pelik ... ni aku tulis balik exactly

sms ni di hantar rasanya jam 931 pagi, 13/12 ...... just sampai kat U, mmg mcm tak nak aku tau jer .. hahahahahah

'Hi, Gd morning. Miss me? Hahaha. Hw was ur weekend? I hv emailed u d images. Nanti free, tlg rvw ya. Waiting from utm to email me d sample of images recons using mimics. kalau dah dpt, i forward 2u. Thks'

aku tak pasti ni sms dia tanya si dyno tu samada si dyno tu miss dia ke atau dia confius yg dyno htr sms kat dia ckp rindu .. hmm .. aku pun tak tahu.

but, it seems ok lagi. kite tengok dulu, lama mana dia nak menggatal. and whether ini main2 atau betul2 ... aku tak boleh gopoh ... kena sabar. aku tak nak jadi org bias ... aku mesti kumpul evidences.

kalau dia main2 shj and dalam 1-2 bulan dah balik ke normal, ok ..... kite cuba sabarlah ..... kan? tapi kalau dia nak nak lebey2 ... then aku kene jaga aku punya maruah ... jgn jadik dayus ... org dayus tak masuk surga ...

hmmmm ... until next time

ntah le .. nape dia gatal hantar email kat si dyno tu?

NI BINI AKU PUNYA EMAIL KAT DYNO TU ... kalau hang ni orang, cuba hang pikir, patut ke hantar email mcm ni and claim email ni email jenis professional bukan email nak menggatal?

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something to share
mmmm.....which one is you?



Kalau lelaki handsome pendiam
Perempuan akan cakap:: woow, cool giler...
kalau lelaki tak handsome pendiam
Perempuan akan cakap: eh perasan bagus...

kalau lelaki handsome berbuat jahat
Perempuan akan kata: nobody's perfect

kalau lelaki tak handsome berbuat jahat
perempuan akan cakap: memang.... muka pun macam pecah rumah!

kalau lelaki handsome menolong perempuan yg diganggu
perempuan akan cakap: wah.. machonya.. macam hero filem!
kalau lelaki tak handsome menolong perempuan yang diganggu
Perempuan akan kata: entah2 kawan dia...

kalau lelaki handsome dapat perempuan cantik
perempuan akan kata: sepadan sangat...
kalau lelaki tak handsome dapat perempuan cantik
perempuan akan kata: mesti kena bomoh perempuan tuh!

kalau lelaki handsome ditinggal kekasih
perempuan akan kata: jangan sedih, kan saya ada..
kalau lelaki tak handsome ditinggal kekasih
perempuan akan kata:...(terdiam, tapi telunjuknya
meliuk-liuk dari atas ke bawah, patutlah, tengok saja luarannya)...

kalau lelaki handsome penyayang binatang
perempuan akan cakap: perasaannya halus...penuh kasih sayang
kalau lelaki tak handsome penyayang binatang
perempuan akan cakap: sesama keluarga memang harus menyayangi...

kalau lelaki handsome bawa BMW
perempuan akan cakap: matching... hebat luar dalam
kalau lelaki tak handsome bawa BMW
perempuan akan cakap: bang, bosnya mana?...

kalau lelaki handsome tak mau bergambar
perempuan akan cakap: pasti takut kalau2 gambarnya tersebar
kalau lelaki tak handsome tak mau bergambar
perempuan akan kata: tak sanggup melihat hasilnya ya?...

kalau lelaki handsome menuang air ke gelas perempuan
perempuan akan cakap:ini barulah lelaki gentlemen
kalau lelaki tak handsome menuang air ke gelas perempuan
perempuan akan cakap: naluri pembantu, memang begitu....

kalau lelaki handsome bersedih hati
perempuan akan cakap: let me be your shoulder to cry on
kalau lelaki tak handsome bersedih hati
perempuan akan kata: kuat nangis!! lelaki ke bukan ni?

calling2

calling from wifey :
27/10
31/10 - 30 min
9/11

call
21/11 14secs
21/11 2 min 42 secs
22/11 45min 51secs
3/12 kul 22:23 1 jam 7 min

sms :
15/10 5#
16/10 9#
17/10 2#
18/10 13#
19/10 8#
21/10 5#
22/10 11#
26/10 3#
27/10 12#
28/10 3#
3/11 10# (balik jb)
4/11 1#
5/11 7#
6/11 11# at 130 am (balik ke kb)
7/11 5#
8/11 4#
8/11 - gaduh
9/11 1#



sms
15/11 6#
21/11 2#
24/11 6#
25/11 6#
26/11 2#
28/11 1#
29/11 6#
30/11 4#
1/12 1#
2/12 4#
3/12 1#
13/12 7#

pic mms : 23/11

Raya haji

Today is eid ul adha. Pagi tadi korban satu bahagian. Aku pergi and niat sahaja. Tak melapah pun, entahla, malas rasa and aku ni memang tak pandai melapah.

Time korban, aku doa agar keluarga aku dijaga Allah. Aku juga doa sgt2 agar isteri aku bersama2 aku utk selamanya.

Petang, aku and dearest simpan2 rumah. Letih juga. Kul 330 aku tido, kul 530 aku bangun. Lama tido sampai termimpi mimpi.

Malam, aku makan dinner kat rumah ma ku. Daging kurban jadi lauk. Aku makan sikit jer sbb tak le lapar sgt. Balik umah sendiri, then sama2 karaoke ngan wife aku. Lagu island in the stream, favorite aku masa remaja dulu. Kami sama2 nyanyi. Suara aku mengalahkan kekatak.

Masa nk tido. Aku buat manicure kat wife aku. Sempat aku tanya dia, dia berani tak nak pledge utk forever stay ngan aku. Fight until the last drop of blood. Dia mcm reluctant. Frust jugak aku. Tapi aku lebih prefer dia tak jawab dari dia jawab tp lepas tu menggatal ngan jantan lain. Kan?aku rasa aku kene prepared. Kalau di takdir jodoh kami tak panjang, aku reda. Tapi aku dah buat keputusan, andai kata dia pergi dgn cara tak baik, she will regret that for the rest of her life. Bukan aku nak lempar cuka getah la. But I will find some one new if not as good as her, better than her.

Panic attack

yesterday, went home late as my dearest had to do locum at one of the private hospital. Went home, saw my brother and his family back too. they are from Kl. we had dinner and right after that went home.

do some house works ... sweeping the floor and yes, there was a lot of semut, here and there.

my dearest was tired. i asked her to rest on the couch. on the way home from work, we had small discussion. she told me she was interested in a few guys masa master dulu. i did too .. lol. told her that, it is normal as long as it does not become physical. what i mean with physical is when you start texting or calling or seeing the person.

Mak oi .. letih minda

semalam sampai kul 1 kat umah .. flight patutnye kul 1030 tapi kul 1115 baru take off. dalam flight duduk pulak kat mamat yang mengjengkelkan ... hampeh.

masa kat KLIA, sempat bermanja dgn wifey .... best jugak. kene buat kerap..kena make this companionship macam masa bergewe dulu.

i told her, that i had read in a book 'women like men for power and resources, and men go for women who are younger and physically more attractive' .. no wonder la, young ladies do not have problems liking older men .. good news for me ...

read in a paper tgh2 mamai, that problems in relationship can really present with physical illness. and it is bad to cling to your partner. it says that you have to be secured. Yes, i agree. I am trying to have that kind of feeling. feeling that i am not clinging to her. i mean, if she goes, there can always be replacement. of course, it wont be the same like the old thing .. but it is new. and i guess every one likes new things kan ...

pagi ni, bangun pagi, air tak de .. adoi ... rupa2nyer tukang aky tutup mesin air. aku pergi pasang balik, but still no water came out. Got the ladder and pushed my self ke dalam siling ... i was looking down and said to myself, i could die if i fall down ... turned on and off the switch .. nuthing happen. DAMN

My farther came, he got onto the ladder, clicked on the switch and grrrrrrrrrrrr it worked ... ish ..mysterious betul ....

Jalan2 and wls di kl

Semalam aku and wife pergi ke gomobile 2010 kat klcc. Aku ingat byk phone tp takde sgt. Ingat nk cari baju utk samsung galaxy tab aku. Frust jugak.

We walked hand in hand. We held hands and that was good. Could never do that in kelantan. We went for shopping. She looked happy as always kalau dah shopping. Probably I should do these kind of things more often. I never like to shop. In fact I hate it. But things need to change. I consider that as investment.

I love her. Love her so much. But the thoughts and the memories remain. That scares me. I can only pray ..... No no no. I think pray is not enough. I have to spend more time with her and hmmm do things together even though I hate these shopping thingy. I know we love each other but I don't have full trust. Is that normal? That bugs me. A lot.

That evening, back to wls meeting. She came a little late. Wearing her pink dress. She as always look great and hot. In the meeting, some how I got a feeling that I need to do the business for me and not for her. One of the reason, is for her recognition of me. Another reason, if shit happen s and she left me. I got the money and beside time, money is the greater healer.

this is the ultimatum

Yang ni mmg giler