Clarification

Hmmm, another day another stress. At times, I dont know how should I deal with this. Is this my problems or hers. Why she keep doing this. How d I response. Where should I put the line. I just dont know. If not because of my 2 boys, I d probably let her go already. Why keeping someone who can't appreciate you. Hey, let her go and just build a new life. People have done that. May be that is thr better way for me and her. But before letting her go, a few things must be settled. I am not sure whether I should get advice from a lawyer. Some one (if) has to go, then he/she should go entirely. Dont want to see her face. Dont want to listen to her voice. She has just to butt out.

Ok, a few questions I would ask her-

Can you explain 2 long calls?

Why the call made when I was not at home?

Why it should be 45 and over 60 min long?

Should tell her my feeling-

Sad

Humiliated

Frustrated

Do you know that I d be mad? So why still doing that?

Worry because can see that you response is superficial

What next steps?

How to ensure I will not get mad if I notice these instances again m

Would telling me be ok?

Maybe instead of me start talking, let just ask her to start. She can start wherever she likes. Then, I will talk when it comes to my turn. I dont want to me nyampuk.

Raya haji

Today is eid ul adha. Pagi tadi korban satu bahagian. Aku pergi and niat sahaja. Tak melapah pun, entahla, malas rasa and aku ni memang tak pandai melapah.

Time korban, aku doa agar keluarga aku dijaga Allah. Aku juga doa sgt2 agar isteri aku bersama2 aku utk selamanya.

Petang, aku and dearest simpan2 rumah. Letih juga. Kul 330 aku tido, kul 530 aku bangun. Lama tido sampai termimpi mimpi.

Malam, aku makan dinner kat rumah ma ku. Daging kurban jadi lauk. Aku makan sikit jer sbb tak le lapar sgt. Balik umah sendiri, then sama2 karaoke ngan wife aku. Lagu island in the stream, favorite aku masa remaja dulu. Kami sama2 nyanyi. Suara aku mengalahkan kekatak.

Masa nk tido. Aku buat manicure kat wife aku. Sempat aku tanya dia, dia berani tak nak pledge utk forever stay ngan aku. Fight until the last drop of blood. Dia mcm reluctant. Frust jugak aku. Tapi aku lebih prefer dia tak jawab dari dia jawab tp lepas tu menggatal ngan jantan lain. Kan?aku rasa aku kene prepared. Kalau di takdir jodoh kami tak panjang, aku reda. Tapi aku dah buat keputusan, andai kata dia pergi dgn cara tak baik, she will regret that for the rest of her life. Bukan aku nak lempar cuka getah la. But I will find some one new if not as good as her, better than her.