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Hi Row,

I have to admit that it was a very painful and distressing day waiting for your reply. Dont wanna talk more about it coz it hurts. Now i started to accept that i might not be hearing from so oftenly.

Sounds that you have a very hectic schedule. Are you upto something? From my understanding, docs in your country are not as busy as us here....correct me if i am wrong. probably it will be compensated during your summer holiday. We dont have summer holiday here coz we dont have summer anyway....ha ha....what a silly answer.

Though you're busy, i think it might be good for you so that you dont have much time thinking about me. I am so sorry for interrupting your life. Your life must be in smooth sailing before i came. Right?

Row, are you trying to tell me something?..... We dont have to discuss it further right? coz i guess it will hurts both parties. Whatever feeling that you have for me, i can feel it and i feel so guilty for putting you in a difficult situation......i wish i can help.

Shall i share with you about my first love? Just to share something.....is it okay with you? i hope i dont bore you too much.

This guy is the first person that i love. Really admire him and we were friend since we met in high school. We were 17 years old at that time. I never tell him that i am serious about the relationship but we keep in touch till i finished my undergraduate study. I thought he has the same feeling since he do send me birhtday card and bought me present when he came back from oversea (he studied in Manchester).

I thought i should be frank to him and asking for the end point of our relationship....but suprisingly he cannot commit. I was so frustated at that time and cannot accept the facts that he doesnt love me. frankly, till now i dont know the reason coz deep inside i knew that he have something that prevent him from accepting me......i am ok now.

Enough for that old puppy love story....ha ha .

Would you like to tell me more about your family? What do you mean when you say that your father has a broken home?

So sorry to hear that. I probably can relate with you since i have the same experience. Not a big issue but i just hate the way my father treat my mom. To me, my mom is the most wonderful person in my life coz without her support i will not be at my position now.....it was a long story by itself.

Hey, enough for a serious talk! Cheer up!

I spend my weekend with my kids, playing with the cats and rabbit. Spending some times with a group of people and helping them lose weight. I am running a weight management program and promoting a healthy lifestyle.

Are you able to see my pics? That's me a year ago. I am now 6kg lighter with BMI of 19. Will post you my latest pics later.

Last but not least.....Row, regarding you request....what shall i say....it is not a big thing but....it involves religious boundary. For muslim, the hair can only be seen by certain man. So, you have to be my husband before you can see it.......hope you understand.

By the way, i do have a nice hair. Wavy upto shoulder and i coloured it with mahogany. I leave it to you to make up the look.....

My writing is extremely lenghty..............sorry to bore u. Have to stop.
Cant wait to hear from you soon. Hope not too long....coz i am gonna miss u!

XXX